Letter to a Man

I want to take the time to write you a little letter so you enver doubt or worry about what I want out of life, out of our relationship, or out of you. My dreams for life are with you... you as my soul mate, love of my life, best friend (or best buddy!), fiance, husband, and father to our children. My dreams and goals in life are with you... and they are to be the best fiancee, wife, step-mom, and mom possible to you, your son, and our kids. I truly want that, as a family, with you, more than anything else. I have so many dreams of an amazing family... one that can smile, laugh, be close, love each other, and survive the good and bad times that'll come. It seems at times you doubt my sincerity when I say those things, or that you may worry or think they'll change for me. Well, I can tell you with 120% sincerity that they won't. I know that deep down to my core, and promise you that for everyday. I know things with J have been on your mind now and always... and what I can tell you is that I love you unconditionally, and I want what you want for him. I have definite high expectations of things I want for my kids (and when I say that, that includes him- I hope you've know that means him no differently than ones of mine or ours), like them having great lives, fun times, enough discipline to raise them to be GREAT adults, and parents that they know care about and love them beyond belief. So, its hard for me when it seems like you are worrying that I feel or will feel differently about him and things with him. I truly think that it will only continue to get better every day with him and us with him... Does that make sense? Meaning, how could you or I ever think that in 6 mo, 1 yr, 5 yrs, or 10 yrs, that my thoughts, feelings, and actions with him would ever change for the worse? Every day he does and will only continue to feel like more of part of my life, and more like someone that I am having an affect on (his life), as well as me feeling like a (step) mom to him. And, though I don't have kids of my own, I cannot imagine ever being able to give up on my own kids or ever not wanting them in my life (yes, bad times and disagreeing times n all)... and I feel exactly the same about him and his life. I always want to be the best step-mom to him, and someone he feels, as he keeps growing up, that is a soft spot for him, someone he can come to with concerns, or just talk to like a regular "mom" would. I want that feeling for him, me, and you so bad, that it completely hurts that I think you may doubt my sincerity or that it would ever change. I know without a doubt in my mind, that it won't. I know your goals in life include raising him to be great, you being an amazing dad (which you area already succeeding at!), being a great boyfriend/fiance/husband to someone you love and care about, and having a family, along with still being close to your important family and friends. Our goals, wants, morals, and values completely line up, as does our chemistry and love. I truly feel God is with us and put us together for a reason... with all my heart I do!

Love ya!